**Spoiler alert: This is not going to be the most upbeat blog post. And there are no pictures.
I contemplated not even writing this down at all, but then the desire to have people pray for me, and my strong belief in the power of God through prayer, won me over. I've been a little too worried lately about the safety and health of my pregnancy. I don't want to worry this much and would appreciate your prayers for peace, for better faith, and for good health for me and the baby. I recognize it's normal, when you're pregnant, to notice even more than normal all of the pregnancy and birth stories happening around you. It seems in the past two weeks I've come across several heart-breaking stories and struggles amongst some of my friends, or their family, and I've let it really weigh me down. A couple of the worst to me, because they hit so close to home at this stage in my pregnancy, were the two young women who had perfectly normal and healthy pregnancies and then went in for their 20 or 22 week check-ups and ultrasounds to discover their babies hearts had stopped at some point after their 16-18 week exams. There were no other signs that something was wrong and nothing had been wrong with their pregnancies prior to these events. Now, I know this happens in life, but to have it happen to two people I have connections to in the last two weeks has been a little hard to take. On top of that I recently heard of a mother who passed away during child birth, and another whose baby came at 30 weeks and needed a lot of help. I don't know why I've let it all worry me so much recently, but I have. I've been praying about it, but I would appreciate your prayers as well. I don't want to continue with this worry and I don't want to keep thinking through these scenarios trying to prepare myself for how I would handle it if it happened to me. I want to live with the peace that God is in control and that, no matter what happens, He is still in control and will guide me and comfort me through whatever comes in my life. Thanks for your prayers!!